I'm now **cking (just suply the missing letters, it's up to you what it means!) pissed off! Why should people make my life so misserable. Hay! FYI! I'm happy on what I'm doin. I'm happy I'm crying, I'm happy I'm getting hurt... etc. I'm happy I know I'm alive! I'm happy that my parents accept me even though I'm GAY (hay! erase the "even though there!) Another FYI, being like this is not a disease for god's sake. I know that love God love's me because for how many years I'm living and being part of the so called "third-sex" I'm still alive. And thank God I'm having a great story in my life. Don't worry, kapag may na publish na ako na book about my life, ur also part of it. Sisingit singit pa kasi, pang-gulo!

Ang ganda ng gising ko ng araw na yun. tapos pinuntahan ko Mom ko galing ako sa skul para sa mabuti kong pagaaral. (Hay! take note of that, kung magbabalita naman pakidagdag. Hindi na lang yung puro story na nalalagyan ng malixus ekek Recognition naman jan for beaing creative not only in manipulating objects but also my life) ... To be continued... punta lang muna ako SM with my girl friend. hahaha

o hayan nakapunta nako ng SM, specifivaly Manila and San Lazaro. Nakapunta na din ako ng Gateway at nakapag overnyt. NAkapanuod na din ako ng cencert at nakakain ng fries at spagheti na gusto ko....

to continue... another FYI, I'm proud of my self! I dont care what people think about me cuz i know they're just papampam kasi I standout. I got super dami ng friends. And most of them are really awesome. Awesome because they are dean listers. I'm proud of my friend Aika because she won awards, Palanca award specificaly. I got super daming support from my friends. as in papatay sila para sakin, ata hehehe excage!@*&#? oh well. Nakapag pahinga na ako. I'm happy I'm accepted by super lots of people na kylangan ko sa buhay. so please! dont take them away! dont make my life miserable! thank you ^_^

Malinis kwarto ko oy!

Whew! sawakas tapos na ako maglinis ng kwarto. aftr 48 years natapos na din ako. inayos ko na din pati laman ng cabinets. hahaha except nga lang yung damitan ko. mga art supply, collection xaka books and projects hiwahiwalay na. Mga thingymajigs nakaayus na din. malaki nanaman ang space sa kwarto kaya nakakatakot nanaman. Pinalitan ko na rin ng cover ang mga dapat palitan. except the kurtina opkors. Hindi pa kasi ako nakakapagpatahi ng sarili kong kurtina. Hindi ko pa din nalilinis yung electric fan ko. hindi ko pa naayus nga yung damitan ko. dami pa din pala akong hindi natatapos. basta ang pinaka masaya malinis na ang lamesa at ilalim ng bed ko. ahihi. this calls for a celebration. horray!

here are some shots of before and after

Before



After

can't help but cry

i thought i could forget about you. bot hell no! I cant. I made me more obssesed about you. I've been so dramatic and emotional about what's happening. I made mistakes that made me suffer now. I thought I could give up on you. Now I know we we're almost there, according to you. I'm sorry that I tried to look for another person, the complete opposite of you. i never thought that I'll hurt you. I'm sorry. dont worry I broke up with him. our relationship just lasted for four days. I hope everything would not change. please dont let Bonnie Bear sleep on your cabinet. I want him beside you while you are dreaming. I'm so stupid. very stupid. I've decided. made mistakes. I'm suffering. can't help but cry.