Let me break it down, k?

WOW grabe, kulang kulang ang mga blogs ko ngayon. Sige, I'll do my bets na ilagay lahat ng mga memorable things as in yung mga na memorize ko. Ok, here it goes.

Split na kami ni Phetititzzz este Adrian pala. Last December 28 nagbreak na kami. Ok lang sakin actually kasi it is not in my nature na magpahirap ng tao. Masmaganda na nga talaga na maghiwalay kami with good memories. Kaso ang pangit ng Christmas vacation ko, hindi ko manlang nasulit. Hmpf! Hehe I tried my best to move on kasi ako aanga-anga parang hindi alam na break na nga pala kami kasi ang tagal magsink-in sakin ang lahat ng mga pangyayari. I let go without knowing the reasons for myself why I’m letting go of someone I love.

So ayun, before mag-start ang klase, I started chatting again. Just looking for new friends, hanggang dun lang. Marami ako nakilala at most of them ay sex lamang ang habol. Sinabi ko na sa kanila na conservative akong tao at nakikipagsex lamang ako sa taong mahal ko. Kainis, mahirap bang tanggapin yun na may tao pang ganun? So ayun, dun ko nakilala ang bago kong friend na si Ryan.

Bumalik na ang klase, hindi ako nakapag focus sa studies ko dahil sa trahedya na naganap. Buti nalang pinasa pa rin ako ni Lord kahit hindi na ako nakapag review for my prelim exams. Pagkatapos nun kala ko hindi na ako gagambalain ng alaala ni Adrian, aba pati panaginip ko pinasok.

May pinakilala naman sakin ang girl friends ko sa 2Ed1 na foreigner. Si Keith, cousin ni May, dati kong ka klase. First time kong nakipag fling at sa Australlian pa. Before Keith leave the country binigyan ko sya ng leather wristlet at binigyan naman nya ako ng mainit na halik na may kasamang sugat sa labi dahil may braces sya sa harap pa ng crush ko. Gusto ni keith na pumunta kami sa CR kaso ayaw ko kasi aalis na ako and maraming tao.sa 1611 that time and I know lasing na sya. So ayun umalis ana ako para umattend ng another party. Hindi na ako nakapag goodbye sa kanya kasi naubusan ako ng load.

After few days ata nalaman ko na may bago na si Adrian, si Gab. Bestfriend ni Kim na buddy ni Adrian. Bigla ko naalala yung mga sinasabi ni Kim. Pero hindi ko na isheshare dito, akin nalang muna yun. Napakilala sakin nila Adrian at Kim nuong kami pang tatlo hehehe si Gab. Gusto kong umiyak kasi nung nakipag break si Adrian sakin, walang luha na tumulo kaya kahit papano gusto ko talaganga umiyak pero walang lumalabas. Nakakainis yung ganun diba? Ang weird pa ng feeling. So ayun, sana ok sila at walang halong bitterness dun.

Finally sumuweldo na ako sa Ej this time. Nakakuha ako ng 6k at 1 week ko lang xa inubos, saya diba. Hindi manlang nabiyayaan ang iba kong friends. Si Aika hindi ko manlang nabigyan ng cake kahit hindi sya mahilig dun kasi chocolate ang ibibigay ko kasi yung ang pamurito ko.

Dito naman pumasok si Ryan, newly found friend. Sa UST din sya nagaaral. Hindi na muna ako magkukuwento tungkol sa kanya kasi wala lang. Basta cute sya at mabait. Hindi pa naman kasi kami ganun magkakilala ng lubusan pero kailanagn sa Valentines, which is monthsary dapat naming ni Adrian (Bonn tama na! This is not about both of you anymore.) ayun dapat magdate kami. Kailangan may pera na ako nun...

Nilulunod ko sarili ko sa music and sound trippings ngayon. I love the songs of Kelly Clarkson and Cueshe right now. Fit na fit sila sa mood ko, nakakadala...

I'm falling again...

Gosh! I'm falling again... not falling apart but falling in love. haaayz! I like being in love. The sensation you get while thinking of the person you love and the beats of your heart getting weird. ^_^ haaayz... We met just yesterday but we know each other a few weeks already. We started chatting then texting then talking. He's sweet, funny and smart. I still does'nt know his real personality but I can't wait to know him better. I just wish that he feels the same way. I mean, hope that he wants to know me better. And if he wants to, I'll do my best to attract him. hehe... Who's he? lets just call him "Folen_Angel." I also hope that it's not an accident that he fall over me hehehe... All I can do is hope, for now.

kala ko panaman ok na ako...

Super tagal na ng kami'y nagwalay, halos magiisang buwan na. Kala ko naka-move on na ako pero bigalang bumalik sa dati. kala ko over na. Natanggap ko na na wala na sya at hindi na dapat panag balikan o pabalikin. Ngunit ang pinaglaruan at isa pala ako sa collection ng 3 months old na mga exs. bakit ganun? anu ba ginawa ko na para tanggapin ang ganitong klasing respeto galing sa kanya? tanong, ano ba akong klaseng tao para sayo? haaayzzz...

Tapos hindi ap ako nakapanood ng USTv. ang aking matalik na kaibigan ay walang tigil ang pangiinggit sakin. May picture pa sya kasama si Bianca Gonzales. Anu ba yan!

Last week may 6k ako. Ngayon 300 pesos na lang, kailangan ko ng 700 pa para sa pambayad sa mamamatay tao, may ipapa-patay ako.

I'm falling. I'm falling not like falling in love but it's falling apart. I spend all my vacation locking my self inside my dusty bedroom instead of doing my projects. I have this problem and it destroys my self. I'm destroying my self. My Christmas is so cold and nobody could answer why but my self. Am I making it cold for me or the one who suppose to make it warm is no where to be seen or hear beside me. Or, I'm the one who suppose to make it warm for my self. Meaning I'm alone in Christmas. Every time I hear the song "Stick with you" or while watching it in the TV, I can't help but fall into tears. Am I being pathetic or people just haven’t felt the true meaning of Love and not just simply one-night-stand or short-time (as to girls call it "shota") or fling or your three months expiration date. Could the day be seen in my future that I'll be singing that song to him? I hope so, I'm hoping. Just hope. So many Questions I need to ask but there is no one but him could answer it. Him is not here but there inside my phone ringing. Just ringing. No answers. Should I give up on this or should I stand up? I know I'm just afraid that I could be just one of his boys who happen to have a 3 months expiration date. But I am just one leg. It can stand up but can't move. I can kick my self to the destination I want if the other leg wants it that way. But where is the other leg? Well, I'm calling him but just ring-ring-ring. I don't know if we have a problem or maybe it's just me. I hope I'm the only one who has a problem so that it's easy to accept and I could only blame my self. New Year is really fast coming. I must do my project fast. Should I still worry about us? Sometimes, I think that, I have done my part, always.

He fights like a man so he can become a woman

Beautiful Boxer is really one of the year's best movies. Napanood ko na yung film kahit hindi pa pinapalabas dito sa Pilipinas. The movie is based on the real life story of Parinya Chareonphoi, a Muaythai boxer who underwent a sex change operation to become a woman; even his name in the movie is Nong Toom. The movie chronicles her life from a young boy who likes to wear lipstick and wear flowers to her sensational career as kickboxer. First, when he was still young, his parents lend him to the monks, which I did not understand why because the movie has only the subtitles on the important scenes. I think that's why he has a strong and firm body because of learning from the monks. As I know, monks centers the strengthening of their body. His Mom was always there to comfort him when he is bullied, that is why his parents didn't have a hard time to accept him for who he is. He started the boxing career when his friends entered him to a boxing competition and accidentally won it. He brought money to his parents because that is what they need even his mom wont let him to fight again. The hardest fight he went through, I think is fighting his friend even the weather wont let them to. I wont spill more of the story. All I really want to say is that, the movie didn't gave the right justice to the story. The story was great, really great, the movie is fine but fine is not enough for such beautiful movie.