I'm falling. I'm falling not like falling in love but it's falling apart. I spend all my vacation locking my self inside my dusty bedroom instead of doing my projects. I have this problem and it destroys my self. I'm destroying my self. My Christmas is so cold and nobody could answer why but my self. Am I making it cold for me or the one who suppose to make it warm is no where to be seen or hear beside me. Or, I'm the one who suppose to make it warm for my self. Meaning I'm alone in Christmas. Every time I hear the song "Stick with you" or while watching it in the TV, I can't help but fall into tears. Am I being pathetic or people just haven’t felt the true meaning of Love and not just simply one-night-stand or short-time (as to girls call it "shota") or fling or your three months expiration date. Could the day be seen in my future that I'll be singing that song to him? I hope so, I'm hoping. Just hope. So many Questions I need to ask but there is no one but him could answer it. Him is not here but there inside my phone ringing. Just ringing. No answers. Should I give up on this or should I stand up? I know I'm just afraid that I could be just one of his boys who happen to have a 3 months expiration date. But I am just one leg. It can stand up but can't move. I can kick my self to the destination I want if the other leg wants it that way. But where is the other leg? Well, I'm calling him but just ring-ring-ring. I don't know if we have a problem or maybe it's just me. I hope I'm the only one who has a problem so that it's easy to accept and I could only blame my self. New Year is really fast coming. I must do my project fast. Should I still worry about us? Sometimes, I think that, I have done my part, always.

He fights like a man so he can become a woman

Beautiful Boxer is really one of the year's best movies. Napanood ko na yung film kahit hindi pa pinapalabas dito sa Pilipinas. The movie is based on the real life story of Parinya Chareonphoi, a Muaythai boxer who underwent a sex change operation to become a woman; even his name in the movie is Nong Toom. The movie chronicles her life from a young boy who likes to wear lipstick and wear flowers to her sensational career as kickboxer. First, when he was still young, his parents lend him to the monks, which I did not understand why because the movie has only the subtitles on the important scenes. I think that's why he has a strong and firm body because of learning from the monks. As I know, monks centers the strengthening of their body. His Mom was always there to comfort him when he is bullied, that is why his parents didn't have a hard time to accept him for who he is. He started the boxing career when his friends entered him to a boxing competition and accidentally won it. He brought money to his parents because that is what they need even his mom wont let him to fight again. The hardest fight he went through, I think is fighting his friend even the weather wont let them to. I wont spill more of the story. All I really want to say is that, the movie didn't gave the right justice to the story. The story was great, really great, the movie is fine but fine is not enough for such beautiful movie.

Zsazsa Zaturnah, malapit ng lumipad!

Ikaw na kaya si Zsazsa?

Tanghalang Pilipino
Zsazsa Zaturnnah (Ze Muzikal)Auditions - Ever!
When : November 29, 2005 2PM-8PM
December 6, 2005 2PM-8PM
Where : Bulwagang Amado Hernandez(Conference Room)
Ground Floor, CCP Main Bldg.
Requirements:
1. Must be at least 18 yrs. old
2. Preferably with theatre experience
3. Can sing very well (We mean it!)
4. Resume with 2x2 headshot (or bigger)Auditionees must BELT OUT A COMIC RENDITION OF ASERIOUS SONG (a capella or accompanied byminus-one/music piece), complete with DANCE STEPS ORMOVEMENT (Yes, solo production number ito.)

NOTE:Wearing of costume is strongly encouraged.

Please register by phone beginning November 22, 2005.

For more details, call the TP office at 832-3661 or832-1125 locals 1620/1621. (pero utang na loob, walang mga nakapagngingitngit na tanong para hindi ma-IM ang mga dakilang taga-TP at mabagsakan kayo ng phone, ok?) =)

Tanghalang PilipinoResident Theater Company of theCultural Center of the Philippines
Roxas Blvd., Pasay CityOffice
Telefax: 832-3661CCP
Trunkline: 832-1125 local 1620 & 1621
(Tuesdays to Fridays)

Whalah! bago lay-out ko. Mas simple ito kaysa sa mga nauna na. I made the pictures my self. Medyo mabagal ito mag-upload sa mga dial-up, I think. Well, sana bigay naman kayo ng comments sa bago kong lay-out kahit sa ngayon e hnd ko pa nlalagay yung link ng comments for every entry.

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I have read from an article that something like this should be keep discreet. But I'm proud of this so here it go!

Medyo lonely ako before our monthsary.. ayaw ko pa sakanyang sabihin kasi I'm just missing him badly, misery. I was like making a phrase for that dilemma.

"I'm lonely right now and its killing me... Sadness fills my heart and soul, all covered up... Someone pull me away from this dark and cold pit of misery, if you please."

So there, its history now. I was cheered by a testimonial for him by his friend. But I was really happy that he called me in the day of our monthsary. He asked me to go to UST - Colayco Park and wait. Kim, his buddy, showed up with a box of cake and 3 balloons. I gave her my gift for Adrian and I asked her to hug my boyfriend for me.

The cake Adrian gave me... how sweet... awww... pero ma sweet pa si Adrian sa cake na to... bkt? e nalasahan ko na sya e... haha JOKE!!!

Si Teddie Beer-Jun2x, my gift, @ si bonbonito

Adrian was so busy but I understand him. I already know that he's a busy person before we enter in this relationship. I love him and that is really important. I'm loyal, faithful and I can wait.

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Yuri, Liza and I were in the EJ office yesternight. Yuri and I were talking about my ideas for the EJ2 cover while Liza was browsing some magazines. Before leaving the Albertus MAgnus Bldg., Yuri told us a story that happened 3 days ago. I'ts really freaky. While on the locking the door, Yuri started to talk, and then we walked.

Yuri: My kukuwnto ako. Alam mo na ba yung nung-isang-araw?
Liza: Hindi pa nya alam.
Ako: Bkt, anu yon?
Yuri: Diba may friend si Joliver(EJ staff) sa Eng'g?
Ako: Oo, girl yun diba, o tapos...
Yuri: Pumunta sila dito tapos sabi nung girl, may tatlong tao daw dito sa labas ng EJ.
Ako: Huh?
Yuri: Tatlong tao sa labas na hindi makapasok kasi may bata sa loob.
Liza: Anu yon tao?
Yuri: Hindi natin nakikita.
(nasa labas pa kami ng EJ, naglalakad)
Ako: parang gusto kong tumingin sa likod kaso hindi ko magawa.

Sobrang freaky tapos medyo natakot pa ako ng nkalabas na kami tapos nakita ko si
Aika at Dean sa labas ng Educ. Aika was texting someone that she thought that it was me. So I freaked out because I dont have prepaid load yet that time. So how will I text Aika if I dont have load? She even explained that I asked her where she is and she said that she's already infront of our bldg., so she texted me to go down and see them. Coincidence that is.

Mas nagpatakot naman sakin ito. I was inside the EJ office this morning before entering class, alone. I was typing something when I heard the door slammed like someone was angry and forced to close the door. After a few seconds, when I can finally move, I went outside to see if someone went out at the other rooms. No one was there. I didn't hear the door opened by someone but I heard it slammed. I closed the computer and take my bag and went down to our classroom. My officemates would be scared if I'll tell this to them.

Yehey! pasukan na ulit... horay!
Alam ko marami magagalit sakn kasi madami pang taong ayaw pang pumasok...
Basta ako masaya kasi may baon na ulit... hehehe
So paguwi ko galing sa eskwela, nakatulog kaagad ako sa kwart dahil sa pagod.
Pagkagising ko nataranta ako kasi hindi pa ako bumibili ng school suplies ko for this semester.
Hindi na ako kumain. Dahil sa sakit ng katawan ginusto kong matulog muli ngunit hindi ako dinalaw ng antok.
Wala na lang akong inatupag kundi maginternet at kumuha ng kumuha ng picture using my CP. hehehe
Habang nasa harap ng computer, binuksan ko ang Telebisyon.
Aking laking gulat ng biglang pinalabas sa MYX Premier ang Music Video ng Sugarfree.
At ang kanta ay, hindi ang theme song ng Panday kundi ang pinaka sweet na kanta para sa akin.










Tulog na by Sugarfree

tulog na mahal ko
hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
lika na, tulog na tayo.
tulog na mahal ko
wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
saka na mamroblema

tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na…

tulog na mahal ko
nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
sige na, tulog na muna
tulog na mahal ko
at baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
at sabay natin haharapin ang mundo

tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na…
hanggang makatulog ka
...
Kinuhaan ko ng video kaso pangit kaya picture na lang.
Marami akong kinuha kaso mabagal ang PC ko kaya dalawa lang na upload ko...
hehe excuses...