I cried my self...

A lot of people were crying today, i just noticed.

Aika and I went to the Mall. I bought the gift that I'll give to my friend, Angel. After that we went down to the super-market to buy 2 poultries. When you enter the Grocery proper, there are 4 ladies greeting costumers.
They are saying this...

"goodevening sir, welcome to SM SUpermarket"
"Shopping basket po, for your convenience"
"Enjoy your shopping!!!"

-- I really did enjoy on that one.

It has been a very long time since I last cried watching MMK (Maalaala Mo Kaya). The Story was about a lady who was abused at first then she became a prostitute and then became a baby maker at the later part of the story. After that a loving mother at last came out.

I cried during Chona(Main char-played by Rica Paralejo) and the boy, who opened her eyes, were saying their goodbyes and the boy promise to look for Chona and his, suppos to be, sister in Chona's womb someday. I also cried when Chona was looking for her baby when the "Casa" was on fire. The moment was really emotional. There was one line that I remembered, "Anak... ayokong pagsisishan na naginga naka kita, kaya ko giangawa ito dahil ayokong pagsisishan na naging ina mo ako..." said Chona to her daughter. That line is so deep and heavy. It really sinked down in me. I found my self "tulala" tahat moment.

Kalakopanaman...

Kagabi pa ako windang na windang...
WOW
kala ko this day would be fine
kala ko I would wakke up at the right side of the bed
Pumasok akong umuulan at tuliro.
wala ang propesor namin s aming unang klase pero nakapagbigay sya ng seatwork!
Sinabi na, i have 2nd thoughts last night to bring the research papers I've made for that class.
Badtrip! hindi ko dinala...
So there was I, sotted on the black and clean arm chair infront of my fellas.
Nahihiya naman ako sa mga classmates ko na maki-share sa mga ginagawa nila kahit buklod-buklod na sila.
I think it's a punishment or lesson for me.
Sigh. I'll make use of the sylabus na nga lang...
I went out of the room and some asked me why am I not working on th seatwork.
I said "I'm trying this new thing, not being a parasite on other peoples work."

Sorry, Love

To Mel,

    Sana nalang pala hindi kita kinausap sa mIRC. Sana hindi nalang kita nakilala at minahal para hindi kita nasaktan ng ganito. Hindi ko gustong masaktan kita. Hindi ko gustong mahalin mo ako ng sobra sobra. Sorry for the plans that we have made. The Family, UK, little Bon and little Mel. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I know "Sorry" is just easy to say but not for me. There are millions of people out there who deserves to be loved by you. Not me. I've been crying since I broke up with you because I don't really know what to do. I'm sorry if I lied to you. I'm so stupid that I've done that to you. I'm sorry for I used my mother and about the phone and internet. I'm sorry for my excuses. I'm sorry for your concerns. I'm sorry kung hindi pa ako umiinom ng gamot. Kung pwede ko lang sana sabihin sayo ang lahat. At, kung maiintindihan mo lang sana. Hindi ko kailangan ang iba, hindi ko sinasabing maghahanap ako ng iba. Ayoko lang ng may naghihintay sakin dahil ayokong rin na naghihintay o pinaghihintay. I hate my self more than the hate I feel for those people making other people wait. I have love you Mel. I already told you my reason, the real reason why I/we need to part ways and I'm not coming back ever. Maybe if we are really meant for each other, magkikita ulit tayo, destiny knows. One last thing, from the heart which you have ocupied all this time, THANK YOU...

So this is goodbye, for the 2nd time.

Sincerely yours, Bonn

The Gig

I was with Aika this afternoon. My Family left me home alone. I don't know where they went. So there, Aika pulled me to SM Manila to watch a Gig. We ate first in KFC because the mini-concert would start at 4:00 pm as told by a guy, from the stage area on 5th flr, which is wrong because it started at around pass 4:30. So there we were sited on the blue bench at the back. The view was nice, not that far and not that near from the stage. Cambio was the first band to perform and they totally rock!!! Diego Mapa is so cute. I like his hair and green shirt. Crush ko na nga sya e. Badtrip lang kc parang sinasabi nya sakin na dapat hindi na lang ako nagpagupit. So much about diego. I notice Epi used his cellphone for the vibration effect several times on his guitar that was so kwel. After Cambio, Diego Introduced the next band which is Imago. Diego is so funny. The last song that Imago played was one of Aika's fave songs. The song rocked the place and Aia rocked it away. She was wild, as in. I She was dancing like crazy. After watching the gig, we went to Greenwich because Aika will buy some food to take home. While waiting, I saw Diego went to the CR and went down after. I shouted his name but I think he never heard me. Well, that's ok. The next time I'll meet them, I already have a copy of their album and see my self talking to him while signing the CD. Hahaha (evil laugh)

 

I and Aika | Diego       

 

  

Epi and his Effect | Strip dancer, Aia

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What's with this!?

Haayz... This song was what I used to hear during our conversation. Now that he is gone away from me, it turns out that this song is what I want to sing for him. In school, Minai told me somethinmg about how this song is realated to her right now. Actually, Minai and I shares the same emotion. We doesnt know what to do next. So her it is, I give it away.

Stay by Cueshe

I believe
We shouldn"t let the moment pass us by
Life"s too short
We shouldn"t wait for the water to run dry

Think about it
Cause we only have one shot at destiny
All im asking
Could it be possibly you and me?

CHORUS:
So if you"d still go, ill understand
Would you give me something just to hold on to
And if youll stay, ill hold your hand
Cause im truly madly, crazily in love with you

Time has come
For us to go our separate ways
God forbid
But my mind is going crazy today

I feel so cold
Feel so numb
Im having nightmares but im awake
Help me Lord
Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away

(Repeat Chorus)

Now that you"re gone, im all alone
im still hoping that you would come back home
dont care how long, but im willing to wait
cause im truly madly crazily in love with you